Okay Mom's we all have one or two things that we discovered after the baby was born and we didn't know was even possible. Here are some of mine.
1) Poop can spray out and go pretty far especially for a breastfed baby! Alex got us a few times before we figure out how he worked. But I never knew poop could spray out like that and he wasn't sick it was normal.
2) Don't Google symptoms your kids have or you will want to rush them to the emergency room because they are always dying. Have you ever Googled slight pain in side. Don't just trust me Don't.
3) Your kids won't tell you the bad words they learn or the crazy things they can do until your around a mess or people trying to show them how great of a mom you are.
4) Once you become a mom say goodbye to quiet bath time cause if its not the kids its the husband.
5) Your kids are going to be worse for you then if you send them to play at Sally or Johns. They may act crazy and make you pull your hair out at home. But all those life lessons you have taught them they hear and follow at their friends.
6)That you could never be more proud of someone, love someone so much, and see something so perfect as your child sleeping. There is something about the peaceful, trusting, and quiet way a baby/child sleeps that make your heart just sing!
7) That you would love little feet so much.
and there are so many more... what have you learned that no one ever taught you... I didn't even get to the pregnancy yet.
Thursday, October 16, 2014
Monday, October 13, 2014
Traveling with kids
Curiously How many of you moms and/or dads travel with your children?
I love to travel being that we live so far from our family I love to travel. I tried to fly once with Alexander when he was about 4 months old to NY and it was horrible. So I drive wherever I go. My normal trip is 17 hours whether to Chicago or to NY and yes I normally do it in one day! My kids are great on the road.
Handling Stops with three kids and one mom.
I did discover that if it is just them and I we don't stop at Gas Stations for restroom breaks. They want stuff and want to touch stuff and wowzer more stress then needed. Usually we fill up at a gas station, and stop at a truck stop to get out. Also if we are going to eat something we usually go to a McDonalds with a play place. They play the whole time and then eat in the car. Then they have a toy in their happy meal!!! :) So beneficial for us all. We do only stop once normally for food though. I pack snacks and water bottles for them. Then it saves time for stopping. We normally leave at like 3am and drive. Normally we make 2-3 stops for bathroom, 4 stops for gas, and 1 stop for food and stretching. Alex has been the only one that has to use the bathroom. So when we stop I do have to change diapers on the other two but I just watch Alex potty break times in a normal day and keep milk and apple juice away for a couple days!
Entertainment on the road
If we leave at 3 am normally they sleep till like 7 or 8. gets a pretty good start for us. Then it is time to entertain. I used to use a TV with DVD's. It seemed like this kept them up and it was a lot of can you change the movies and whining. So I have discovered to take a lot of little toys and some books. This entertains them. I also run them ragged the day before we leave. My kids sleep over half the trip in the car and the other times are pretty much reading, and playing with the toys. We take one blanket each and a stuffed animal. It works great. We have a lot of fun doing this. I also look for cool things that are on the back of trucks. Half the time I don't know what I am pointing out but it is exciting for them to see something new. We also sing together. I will turn off or down my radio and we sing songs together. They don't do a lot of are we there yet questions but I do get which city is this. :) When I don't say Chicago, or we are just outside NY (Not many cities close to my family) they are not very happy but they know we are closer then when we started.
Time on the road can get crazy
My kids do great but they are not perfect I expect at least one melt down from each of them on the way. The boys will argue over toys and sometimes it makes me want to pull my hair out while driving. But we get there and it is always worth it. The time we have with family and the time we have with ourselves doing something new or seeing something different. Makes it worth ever mile!
Questions for you
Do you have a routine for driving? Do you have any airport advice so I can fly more? What do you recommend for road entertainment? I would love to have feed back from other moms/dads!
I love to travel being that we live so far from our family I love to travel. I tried to fly once with Alexander when he was about 4 months old to NY and it was horrible. So I drive wherever I go. My normal trip is 17 hours whether to Chicago or to NY and yes I normally do it in one day! My kids are great on the road.
Handling Stops with three kids and one mom.
I did discover that if it is just them and I we don't stop at Gas Stations for restroom breaks. They want stuff and want to touch stuff and wowzer more stress then needed. Usually we fill up at a gas station, and stop at a truck stop to get out. Also if we are going to eat something we usually go to a McDonalds with a play place. They play the whole time and then eat in the car. Then they have a toy in their happy meal!!! :) So beneficial for us all. We do only stop once normally for food though. I pack snacks and water bottles for them. Then it saves time for stopping. We normally leave at like 3am and drive. Normally we make 2-3 stops for bathroom, 4 stops for gas, and 1 stop for food and stretching. Alex has been the only one that has to use the bathroom. So when we stop I do have to change diapers on the other two but I just watch Alex potty break times in a normal day and keep milk and apple juice away for a couple days!
Entertainment on the road
If we leave at 3 am normally they sleep till like 7 or 8. gets a pretty good start for us. Then it is time to entertain. I used to use a TV with DVD's. It seemed like this kept them up and it was a lot of can you change the movies and whining. So I have discovered to take a lot of little toys and some books. This entertains them. I also run them ragged the day before we leave. My kids sleep over half the trip in the car and the other times are pretty much reading, and playing with the toys. We take one blanket each and a stuffed animal. It works great. We have a lot of fun doing this. I also look for cool things that are on the back of trucks. Half the time I don't know what I am pointing out but it is exciting for them to see something new. We also sing together. I will turn off or down my radio and we sing songs together. They don't do a lot of are we there yet questions but I do get which city is this. :) When I don't say Chicago, or we are just outside NY (Not many cities close to my family) they are not very happy but they know we are closer then when we started.
Time on the road can get crazy
My kids do great but they are not perfect I expect at least one melt down from each of them on the way. The boys will argue over toys and sometimes it makes me want to pull my hair out while driving. But we get there and it is always worth it. The time we have with family and the time we have with ourselves doing something new or seeing something different. Makes it worth ever mile!
Questions for you
Do you have a routine for driving? Do you have any airport advice so I can fly more? What do you recommend for road entertainment? I would love to have feed back from other moms/dads!
Sunday, October 12, 2014
The last Pregnancy I had
After I had Aislynn the question for Floyd and I had become do we really want the four we have always talked about or are we happy with our three. I had had three amazing pregnancies and didn't know any of them were coming. We had decided we wanted to feel it out. I knew I needed a couple years to recover. My body was tired and now I had three children to chase, but I was not ready to get my tubes tied because I didn't know if I was done yet. I choose to get the Paragard a non-hormonal IUD that lasts 10 years. It was a hard decision because I am Catholic and it is something that is very much frowned upon. Floyd though is not and it was what we felt was best for our family. Around March time we were thinking that I might as well get my tubes tied. We were happy with three we didn't have to have a bigger vehicle and each of the kids would be able to have their own room in our house.
In June I noticed some things that were a little off. I was very tired all the time and was not feeling sexual at all. Normal symptoms for me in my first trimester of being pregnant. I was at a friends house and decided to take a test even though I was sure I couldn't be. SUPRISE it was positive. I was so scared to tell my husband. I called my best friend first and cried to her on the phone. (She is the type that doesn't hold anything back so I figured if she was supportive my husband had to be) I also called my OBGYN right away to see what the next moves where and started using Google to research the good, the bad, and the ugly. I also told my husband right away. This is going to be a long article sorry but this is very important to me and I think there is a lot others can learn and you as well.
Let me start with what I found on Google.
To my surprise getting pregnant on this IUD was very much more common then I ever knew. I encourage everyone to do some research before using some of these contraceptives. Whether its a new form of "the pill" or some other sort of Birth Control. Not because of the chance of getting pregnant but because of the effects it can have on the pregnancy itself. See I didn't want to get pregnant but after I get pregnant that baby is my baby and I don't want to put my baby in danger.
What I read online. The good is a lot of babies are born, healthy, and keep going. The bad is a lot of women have to get ultrasounds every two weeks because they are unable to take the IUD out if it is close enough to the baby in womb. That is not as good as it could be because the cost would be out of this world. Insurances only cover so much Ultrasound cost and only so many ultrasounds. The ugly is very common for a horrible infection if the IUD is not taken out. This infection is not only harmful to baby but also to the mom.
The other procedure is to take out the IUD and babies do make it after the removal process. However, it is most common for miscarriage.
My OBGYN visits
When I called my OBGYN my midwife had me come in for HTC tests. I had to do one on the Friday and one on Monday to see if my counts where going up and I was in fact pregnant. I was pregnant so the next step was to have a small ultrasound to see where the baby was located compared to the IUD. It wasn't far from the baby and they pulled it out. Of course their was the warning of you could lose the baby after this today. I embraced it and got myself ready for a miscarriage (as ready as you can ever get) but the baby stayed and I was going to have a fourth baby! Went in a week later to find out that baby had a heart beat and it was now a "normal pregnancy". So very exciting.
The short exciting pregnancy
After all this I was so excited to be having a baby. I went to Chicago and spent a month with my best friends family and my in-laws that live there and it was a great July. Came back and my oldest son started school. My husband was able to join us for two weeks of the trip and we were able to celebrate my Daughters first birthday with all our family in Chicago. (Most of my family is in upstate NY, his family is in Chicago and my best friend who for all intents and purposes is my sister, and we live in FL) It was an amazing celebration and I used the time up there to be with my kids and my niece and nephews and I was excited to know that soon I would have a fourth.
When I came home I started getting the crib, and swing, and extra things you need for a fourth baby. (I had gotten rid of most of my baby items). It was very exciting times. We went in for our 12 week ultrasound and the baby was doing great. The baby measured 12 weeks 1 day. :) My husband and I started the name game and was figuring out what to call the baby. We were very excited at this time.
Things got ugly
A week after I had my ultra sound I had a tooth ache that was insane. I went to an emergency dentist and he poked and prodded at my teeth and then informed me I had to pay him $1000 something dollars to fix my tooth. He wouldn't accept my insurance and that is what would have to happen. I left there with my entire face swollen and called my doctors Tuesday morning. (this was Sat and Monday was labor day) When I went into my dentist on Tuesday I was immediately sent to another office to have work done. The dentist there had to pull my tooth, insert a drain in my cheek. I was only allowed to take Tylenol for pain and use heating pads because of the pregnancy. It also affected my sinus's and was causing migraines and I was a hurting unit for about a week and a half.
On Sept 11 I woke up and went to the bathroom to find my mucus plug was coming out. I was only 15 weeks pregnant so that was very wrong and odd to me. Then I was spotting. I thought I was going to end up on bed rest or something. I called my doctor and told him what was going on. He was going to call me later to see what was happening. I went about my day as normal to see if it was just old blood coming out. It stopped while I was shopping and at breakfast with my husband. When we got home my husband watched my kids and I laid down for a bit. When I woke up I was spotting again that is so backwards to what I expected. I called my doctor and he sent me to get an ultrasound.
The worst words I have ever heard in my life.
My husband and I went into the ultrasound room and were hoping for good just maybe I needed to be on bed rest or a medicine. However the words that came out of the ultrasound techs mouth were "There is no heartbeat". I heard her tell my doctor that the baby stopped developing at 12 weeks 4 days. It was the worst thing I had ever heard. I didn't want to believe it. I looked at the screen and the picture of the beautiful baby playing at 12 weeks 1 day was a gray blob on the screen. No heartbeat. No blood flow. No movement. My baby was gone. My husband and I sat in the room and just cried for about 20 minutes, we then went to our truck and did the same. While driving home I called my sister and my mom, and another of my besties. They did a lot of the calling for me from there and I just had some texts and a couple calls to make. The hardest part of the entire day after hearing the No Heartbeat was telling my 4 year old. Making him understand there was no more baby here on earth but only in Heaven with God. I told him I believe fully that his baby sibling was up praying for him and was his guardian Angel.
The Next three days.
The next day was Friday. I was a mess I cried a lot. We had to go into my OBGYN's office. I remember sitting in a waiting room full of excited pregnant women and just wanting to hide my face and be invisible. I was happy for them but didn't know how I felt. When I was called to the back I couldn't help but cry. My midwife just hugged me and told me it wasn't my fault. Though all I could think was how could it not be, and how did I not know, and what kind of mom am I to not know my unborn, still in my uterus had passed. She told me I couldn't try to change things but that I had to know it wasn't my fault and it happens sometimes so not to focus on what I did because it wasn't my fault. She then said something to me that my sister had said the night before. She said maybe this is God's way of showing you that your not done having babies. It just isn't the right time to have one. Which made sense when we were talking about getting all the procedures done. At the office they drew blood and scheduled a D&C for the Monday after. That weekend was rough. I would just hope that a miracle would happen. A heartbeat would be found or something would happen to show I still had a healthy baby in there. My intelligent part new that wasn't happening, by my heart and my faithful side just wanted it to be. I had the most amazing people praying for me and a friend who brought dinner to my house for my family for two days, and a friend who came and took me to lunch to get me away. We took the kids out and tried to experience life as normal but it was not the same. I still felt half there. I felt broken. Fully Broken. I had been so sick with the teeth and sinus's and then to find out my body didn't even hold my baby. I was an emotional wreck and just broken. Thank God for my husband and his little brother because they helped with the kids and really took care of me too. Lunch with my friend was great because we went and talked about our lives but I didn't have to talk about the miscarriage.
Sunday night passing
On Sunday night I started having contractions and about 10 I went in to use the restroom and I went into labor. I could say I birthed but I can't because birth is to me life. and there was no life in what was coming out of me. I flushed everything down the toilet. That was the most awkward hardest thing I think we ever had to do. I wouldn't hit the flusher my husband had to. Sorry my love but thank you for being there to help me. I couldn't stop bleeding though and I started to pass out and had to go to the ER. I was in there until 5:30 am and then went and had to have my D&C because my Uterus wasn't empty. I was put under and the next thing I knew I was healing.
The best words said to me
When I was waking from my procedure the thing I remember hearing the most was my doctor say "You look good in there and you could get pregnant next week if you want". I don't know why but this helped me so much. Maybe because I did feel so broken and he told me I wasn't. Maybe because I could choose. Things looked brighter from that point on. I was able to go home and that evening when my pain was lower I spent time with my three babies again. I remembered one thing that day fully remember that I AM ALREADY BLESSED WITH THREE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN. I had to snap out of it and go on for them. I have.
I am on birth control pills now. Will we ever have another baby probably. That is what God will decide. We will talk and attempt in a year or two when I feel like my body has recovered and I know it will be an emotional and stressful moment. Emotionally we will have to deal with while trying and finding out we are pregnant and going through the pregnancy. However we are ok.
I have designed a Flower tattoo with all my kids initials in the center (all their initials are AW) and I included a butterfly to show Angel Baby (we decided to save the names we had thought of for our next baby if we were going to have one and use Angel Baby because it is an A name and so true). I know notice butterfly's everywhere it is random but a sign. I go weekly and pray for my baby and for my baby and I to stay connected and know I love my baby. I have even started to go and pray to Mary the mother of God and ask for help with raising my children and for knowing when it is right for me to have another. I have learned to not look at the past but at the future. I will always have my days where I just cry and my hours of how much I wish I could have held my baby just once, however I have learned I am strong and I go on because I have three other beautiful and loved babies.
If you come upon this and have had a miscarriage I am sorry for your loss and I hope this helps you feel your not alone, or helps bring you comfort. If you never have I am so GLAD I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. Please feel free to ask questions or chime in. If your a friend of mine and want to text me something. I am good to talk I may tear up (you know me I always do) but I don't mind talking about it.
If you were one of the people praying for me and my family Thank You. I never questioned GOD or was NEVER ANGRY WITH HIM but always looking to him and I believe this is from all your prayers. If you brought me a hug, dinner or took me out Thank you I am truly blessed. And for my wolf pack thank you for letting me talk to you and be honest about everything I was feeling.
For my husband Thank you for being my rock and my love. For being patient and loving and strong for us both. I love you.
In June I noticed some things that were a little off. I was very tired all the time and was not feeling sexual at all. Normal symptoms for me in my first trimester of being pregnant. I was at a friends house and decided to take a test even though I was sure I couldn't be. SUPRISE it was positive. I was so scared to tell my husband. I called my best friend first and cried to her on the phone. (She is the type that doesn't hold anything back so I figured if she was supportive my husband had to be) I also called my OBGYN right away to see what the next moves where and started using Google to research the good, the bad, and the ugly. I also told my husband right away. This is going to be a long article sorry but this is very important to me and I think there is a lot others can learn and you as well.
Let me start with what I found on Google.
To my surprise getting pregnant on this IUD was very much more common then I ever knew. I encourage everyone to do some research before using some of these contraceptives. Whether its a new form of "the pill" or some other sort of Birth Control. Not because of the chance of getting pregnant but because of the effects it can have on the pregnancy itself. See I didn't want to get pregnant but after I get pregnant that baby is my baby and I don't want to put my baby in danger.
What I read online. The good is a lot of babies are born, healthy, and keep going. The bad is a lot of women have to get ultrasounds every two weeks because they are unable to take the IUD out if it is close enough to the baby in womb. That is not as good as it could be because the cost would be out of this world. Insurances only cover so much Ultrasound cost and only so many ultrasounds. The ugly is very common for a horrible infection if the IUD is not taken out. This infection is not only harmful to baby but also to the mom.
The other procedure is to take out the IUD and babies do make it after the removal process. However, it is most common for miscarriage.
My OBGYN visits
When I called my OBGYN my midwife had me come in for HTC tests. I had to do one on the Friday and one on Monday to see if my counts where going up and I was in fact pregnant. I was pregnant so the next step was to have a small ultrasound to see where the baby was located compared to the IUD. It wasn't far from the baby and they pulled it out. Of course their was the warning of you could lose the baby after this today. I embraced it and got myself ready for a miscarriage (as ready as you can ever get) but the baby stayed and I was going to have a fourth baby! Went in a week later to find out that baby had a heart beat and it was now a "normal pregnancy". So very exciting.
The short exciting pregnancy
After all this I was so excited to be having a baby. I went to Chicago and spent a month with my best friends family and my in-laws that live there and it was a great July. Came back and my oldest son started school. My husband was able to join us for two weeks of the trip and we were able to celebrate my Daughters first birthday with all our family in Chicago. (Most of my family is in upstate NY, his family is in Chicago and my best friend who for all intents and purposes is my sister, and we live in FL) It was an amazing celebration and I used the time up there to be with my kids and my niece and nephews and I was excited to know that soon I would have a fourth.
When I came home I started getting the crib, and swing, and extra things you need for a fourth baby. (I had gotten rid of most of my baby items). It was very exciting times. We went in for our 12 week ultrasound and the baby was doing great. The baby measured 12 weeks 1 day. :) My husband and I started the name game and was figuring out what to call the baby. We were very excited at this time.
Things got ugly
A week after I had my ultra sound I had a tooth ache that was insane. I went to an emergency dentist and he poked and prodded at my teeth and then informed me I had to pay him $1000 something dollars to fix my tooth. He wouldn't accept my insurance and that is what would have to happen. I left there with my entire face swollen and called my doctors Tuesday morning. (this was Sat and Monday was labor day) When I went into my dentist on Tuesday I was immediately sent to another office to have work done. The dentist there had to pull my tooth, insert a drain in my cheek. I was only allowed to take Tylenol for pain and use heating pads because of the pregnancy. It also affected my sinus's and was causing migraines and I was a hurting unit for about a week and a half.
On Sept 11 I woke up and went to the bathroom to find my mucus plug was coming out. I was only 15 weeks pregnant so that was very wrong and odd to me. Then I was spotting. I thought I was going to end up on bed rest or something. I called my doctor and told him what was going on. He was going to call me later to see what was happening. I went about my day as normal to see if it was just old blood coming out. It stopped while I was shopping and at breakfast with my husband. When we got home my husband watched my kids and I laid down for a bit. When I woke up I was spotting again that is so backwards to what I expected. I called my doctor and he sent me to get an ultrasound.
The worst words I have ever heard in my life.
My husband and I went into the ultrasound room and were hoping for good just maybe I needed to be on bed rest or a medicine. However the words that came out of the ultrasound techs mouth were "There is no heartbeat". I heard her tell my doctor that the baby stopped developing at 12 weeks 4 days. It was the worst thing I had ever heard. I didn't want to believe it. I looked at the screen and the picture of the beautiful baby playing at 12 weeks 1 day was a gray blob on the screen. No heartbeat. No blood flow. No movement. My baby was gone. My husband and I sat in the room and just cried for about 20 minutes, we then went to our truck and did the same. While driving home I called my sister and my mom, and another of my besties. They did a lot of the calling for me from there and I just had some texts and a couple calls to make. The hardest part of the entire day after hearing the No Heartbeat was telling my 4 year old. Making him understand there was no more baby here on earth but only in Heaven with God. I told him I believe fully that his baby sibling was up praying for him and was his guardian Angel.
The Next three days.
The next day was Friday. I was a mess I cried a lot. We had to go into my OBGYN's office. I remember sitting in a waiting room full of excited pregnant women and just wanting to hide my face and be invisible. I was happy for them but didn't know how I felt. When I was called to the back I couldn't help but cry. My midwife just hugged me and told me it wasn't my fault. Though all I could think was how could it not be, and how did I not know, and what kind of mom am I to not know my unborn, still in my uterus had passed. She told me I couldn't try to change things but that I had to know it wasn't my fault and it happens sometimes so not to focus on what I did because it wasn't my fault. She then said something to me that my sister had said the night before. She said maybe this is God's way of showing you that your not done having babies. It just isn't the right time to have one. Which made sense when we were talking about getting all the procedures done. At the office they drew blood and scheduled a D&C for the Monday after. That weekend was rough. I would just hope that a miracle would happen. A heartbeat would be found or something would happen to show I still had a healthy baby in there. My intelligent part new that wasn't happening, by my heart and my faithful side just wanted it to be. I had the most amazing people praying for me and a friend who brought dinner to my house for my family for two days, and a friend who came and took me to lunch to get me away. We took the kids out and tried to experience life as normal but it was not the same. I still felt half there. I felt broken. Fully Broken. I had been so sick with the teeth and sinus's and then to find out my body didn't even hold my baby. I was an emotional wreck and just broken. Thank God for my husband and his little brother because they helped with the kids and really took care of me too. Lunch with my friend was great because we went and talked about our lives but I didn't have to talk about the miscarriage.
Sunday night passing
On Sunday night I started having contractions and about 10 I went in to use the restroom and I went into labor. I could say I birthed but I can't because birth is to me life. and there was no life in what was coming out of me. I flushed everything down the toilet. That was the most awkward hardest thing I think we ever had to do. I wouldn't hit the flusher my husband had to. Sorry my love but thank you for being there to help me. I couldn't stop bleeding though and I started to pass out and had to go to the ER. I was in there until 5:30 am and then went and had to have my D&C because my Uterus wasn't empty. I was put under and the next thing I knew I was healing.
The best words said to me
When I was waking from my procedure the thing I remember hearing the most was my doctor say "You look good in there and you could get pregnant next week if you want". I don't know why but this helped me so much. Maybe because I did feel so broken and he told me I wasn't. Maybe because I could choose. Things looked brighter from that point on. I was able to go home and that evening when my pain was lower I spent time with my three babies again. I remembered one thing that day fully remember that I AM ALREADY BLESSED WITH THREE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN. I had to snap out of it and go on for them. I have.
I am on birth control pills now. Will we ever have another baby probably. That is what God will decide. We will talk and attempt in a year or two when I feel like my body has recovered and I know it will be an emotional and stressful moment. Emotionally we will have to deal with while trying and finding out we are pregnant and going through the pregnancy. However we are ok.
I have designed a Flower tattoo with all my kids initials in the center (all their initials are AW) and I included a butterfly to show Angel Baby (we decided to save the names we had thought of for our next baby if we were going to have one and use Angel Baby because it is an A name and so true). I know notice butterfly's everywhere it is random but a sign. I go weekly and pray for my baby and for my baby and I to stay connected and know I love my baby. I have even started to go and pray to Mary the mother of God and ask for help with raising my children and for knowing when it is right for me to have another. I have learned to not look at the past but at the future. I will always have my days where I just cry and my hours of how much I wish I could have held my baby just once, however I have learned I am strong and I go on because I have three other beautiful and loved babies.
If you come upon this and have had a miscarriage I am sorry for your loss and I hope this helps you feel your not alone, or helps bring you comfort. If you never have I am so GLAD I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. Please feel free to ask questions or chime in. If your a friend of mine and want to text me something. I am good to talk I may tear up (you know me I always do) but I don't mind talking about it.
If you were one of the people praying for me and my family Thank You. I never questioned GOD or was NEVER ANGRY WITH HIM but always looking to him and I believe this is from all your prayers. If you brought me a hug, dinner or took me out Thank you I am truly blessed. And for my wolf pack thank you for letting me talk to you and be honest about everything I was feeling.
For my husband Thank you for being my rock and my love. For being patient and loving and strong for us both. I love you.
Saturday, October 11, 2014
My Wee girl!
Third comes my sweet wee girl. Not sure why I say wee because she is almost bigger in size than Ayddrick but she is my youngest. Aislynn was a bit of a surprise here. But I just am so in love with her. She truly is so beautiful. It's all in her eyes they are so gorgeous and full like they have a story to tell. So perfect. She is a princess of course. You say the word no and she freaks. haha
She is only 1 and learning to talk. LOL sometimes she will be talking away and I don't understand one word but it don't stop her. I love too when she laughs when she is talking it is so random. She has also started to sing it is horrid but someday maybe she will be an artist.
Oh and she opens her mouth wide when you say to give me a kiss. Ewww. Today she showed she knows how to give a stink face. The dirty look she gave her daddy amazed me. The best part was he gave the same one right back. She is going to be my handful but she is amazing. I am so very thankful for our surprise little girl!
The next article is going to get a little more serious and it will be about my miscarriage. That will start off real topics.
She is only 1 and learning to talk. LOL sometimes she will be talking away and I don't understand one word but it don't stop her. I love too when she laughs when she is talking it is so random. She has also started to sing it is horrid but someday maybe she will be an artist.
Oh and she opens her mouth wide when you say to give me a kiss. Ewww. Today she showed she knows how to give a stink face. The dirty look she gave her daddy amazed me. The best part was he gave the same one right back. She is going to be my handful but she is amazing. I am so very thankful for our surprise little girl!
The next article is going to get a little more serious and it will be about my miscarriage. That will start off real topics.
Friday, October 10, 2014
My Middle Son
My Sweet middle child. He is a lover!!!! He is the one that for some reason isn't big for his age but actually short and scranny. He is so thin though that he looks tall for himself but he is short compared to his siblings. But its good for him I can still lift him and he loves to be held and cuddled. He is my lover. The only one not breastfed at all and yet the one who wants to cuddle most. Interesting topic to bring up later.
He is also my most stubborn child. But boy do I just love his little self and he is at the age where he is finding his own personality and it is so fun.
His dream is to be just like Alex. He looks up to his older brother so much and when they are apart it is challenging for him. He is also very protective of his sister. Very protective of his sister and doesn't like being away from her either. So awesome. I love that my kids love each other so much.
I just love him so much as well.
He will bring up a lot of my topics too because of all his randomness that is so different from my other three.
He is also my most stubborn child. But boy do I just love his little self and he is at the age where he is finding his own personality and it is so fun.
His dream is to be just like Alex. He looks up to his older brother so much and when they are apart it is challenging for him. He is also very protective of his sister. Very protective of his sister and doesn't like being away from her either. So awesome. I love that my kids love each other so much.
I just love him so much as well.
He will bring up a lot of my topics too because of all his randomness that is so different from my other three.
My Oldest Son
Today I will tell you about Alexander. Alex just turned 5 and is so full of life. Alex has been such a joy in our lives. He came a great surprise and boy he was cute since day 1. You know I have always been afraid of having ugly kids but I was blessed and didn't have an ugly one yet!
My biggest challenge with Alex is his intelligence. He is too smart for his own good. Sometimes he outsmarts me. I would never ever tell him that but He does. He likes to sing and dance and try new things. He is a bubbly boy and talks to everyone. He first makes sure they know how to spell his name and that he is the big brother (which is obvious when he is so much taller then the others). After that no one can predict where the conversation is going. Sometimes he is a handful at home mainly because he is so full of energy. Although; he behaves himself when others are watching him which is super important to me.
Alex started preschool this year and it has been an adjustment for us all. He loves it though and other than one day he has been super good so far. Of course, one day of bad behavior in school has equaled a lot of changes at home to make sure it doesn't happen again.
This boy is also a charmer. He likes older women (mostly my friends which is cool I trust them ;) ) and he is not afraid to ask them out on a date. One lady he informed I would go get Dunkin Doughnuts and they could have breakfast together. hahaha So cute. I would have because it was an adorable moment.
I truly love this kid to pieces and thank God everyday for him.
I tell you about my kids to bring up topics later. I will put in my input and would love to hear what others have to say. Either later today or tomorrow I will talk about my middle child!
My biggest challenge with Alex is his intelligence. He is too smart for his own good. Sometimes he outsmarts me. I would never ever tell him that but He does. He likes to sing and dance and try new things. He is a bubbly boy and talks to everyone. He first makes sure they know how to spell his name and that he is the big brother (which is obvious when he is so much taller then the others). After that no one can predict where the conversation is going. Sometimes he is a handful at home mainly because he is so full of energy. Although; he behaves himself when others are watching him which is super important to me.
Alex started preschool this year and it has been an adjustment for us all. He loves it though and other than one day he has been super good so far. Of course, one day of bad behavior in school has equaled a lot of changes at home to make sure it doesn't happen again.
This boy is also a charmer. He likes older women (mostly my friends which is cool I trust them ;) ) and he is not afraid to ask them out on a date. One lady he informed I would go get Dunkin Doughnuts and they could have breakfast together. hahaha So cute. I would have because it was an adorable moment.
I truly love this kid to pieces and thank God everyday for him.
I tell you about my kids to bring up topics later. I will put in my input and would love to hear what others have to say. Either later today or tomorrow I will talk about my middle child!
Thursday, October 9, 2014
My Marriage
I am going to give you all some background information before getting into current events. So before I had babies I found my soul mate.
I had just ended a short term relationship and was goofing around and asked a girl I worked with if she had any single friends. Never expecting the answer I received, I received it. Her answer was that yes she did and was telling him about me already. Then she asked "Do you like big guys?" Well being that I have never been uncurvy of course I like big guys that make me feel safe and like I was not going to break them. She invited me over to watch wrestling... yup didn't think I would attend. I did though and the minute this man put his arm around me I knew I was in love. We were together for 2 years before I found out I was pregnant for our oldest son and we married at 4. I even planned the wedding for May 21, 2011 our exact 4 year anniversary. Of course I told him if he didn't marry me that day he would be looking for someone else. He loved me though and we of course were married. We have been together for 7 years now almost 8. I love this man more and more everyday. I don't know if that is normal but for me he becomes more and more of my best friend. Our relationship has had its ups and downs. Some pretty bad downs too but I am so madly in love with him that it doesn't matter about them anymore.
I look forward to growing old with Floyd by my side. I look forward to continue to surprise him with my randomness. I look forward to him surprising me and making me the richest house wife ever!!!! hahaha That is just a joke. I don't care about money I will be rich with his love.
So that is the opener. I will probably go into more details on the good the bad the ugly and the most amazing further into this blog. Tomorrow I will tell you about my little oldest love Alexander! Stay tuned
I had just ended a short term relationship and was goofing around and asked a girl I worked with if she had any single friends. Never expecting the answer I received, I received it. Her answer was that yes she did and was telling him about me already. Then she asked "Do you like big guys?" Well being that I have never been uncurvy of course I like big guys that make me feel safe and like I was not going to break them. She invited me over to watch wrestling... yup didn't think I would attend. I did though and the minute this man put his arm around me I knew I was in love. We were together for 2 years before I found out I was pregnant for our oldest son and we married at 4. I even planned the wedding for May 21, 2011 our exact 4 year anniversary. Of course I told him if he didn't marry me that day he would be looking for someone else. He loved me though and we of course were married. We have been together for 7 years now almost 8. I love this man more and more everyday. I don't know if that is normal but for me he becomes more and more of my best friend. Our relationship has had its ups and downs. Some pretty bad downs too but I am so madly in love with him that it doesn't matter about them anymore.
I look forward to growing old with Floyd by my side. I look forward to continue to surprise him with my randomness. I look forward to him surprising me and making me the richest house wife ever!!!! hahaha That is just a joke. I don't care about money I will be rich with his love.
So that is the opener. I will probably go into more details on the good the bad the ugly and the most amazing further into this blog. Tomorrow I will tell you about my little oldest love Alexander! Stay tuned
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